I always expect. I never learn. I tell myself not to but I always seem to do. I know expectations lead to feelings that hurt you. So I detach myself. When I do, hurt doesn't seem to hurt as much; emotions are easier to handle, if there is any of it left. When I detach myself, I don't expect, I don't get frustrated, and I get better at it that I am already numb. But I don't want to be numb, and I don't want to get hurt either. I thought I was rational, what choice am I left with? I can't seem to see the answer, some thoughts are clouding my mind.